My friend and fellow warrior over at Rejoice, Beloved reblogged one of my posts and in a comment she wrote she led me to more clarity.
She pointed me in the direction of Isaiah 54, and in those words of scripture I found another piece of my soul.
Sing, childless woman, you who have never given birth.Raise a joyful shout, you who have never gone through labor…
Enlarge your house. You are going to need a bigger place; don’t underestimate the amount of room that you’ll need. So build, build, build.
You will increase in every direction to fill the world…
Don’t be afraid, for there is no one to shame you.Don’t fear humiliation, for there is no one to disgrace you…
She wrote that my ever upward is my joyful shout to the world. And, in reading her words I felt myself give myself the permission I need to really fill the world with my singing.
To build, to fill the world.
To walk straight through my fears.
This light inside of me to speak, to educate, to help and to give myself and others permission.
Permission to speak our truth.
Permission to embrace our whole story.
Permission to practice our recovery.
Permission to own it all.
Ever upward is my joyful shout.
Ever upward is my mark on the world; my legacy, just not left in the legacy of my own children.
Ever upward is my continued seeking and fighting to reveal our shame and rise above it.
Ever upward is my connection to my story and to our story.
Because our stories, our shout or whisper to the world, is the light and the love of ever upward.
*To read more about my story and my recovery make sure to pick up a copy of the very soon to be published Ever Upward: Overcoming the Lifelong Losses of Infertility to Own a Childfree Life.*
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