I was one way and now I am me.

I am different. Forever changed. Transformed.

I was one way & now I am me.

What changed? Jesus, of course. And the love, obedience, and wisdom of @thejamiewinship and @thedonnawinship and their incredible team at @identityexchange.

I just spent three days surrounded by more love and joy than I think I have ever felt in my life. And for the first time, I was my full, authentic self with no nervousness, no head trash, no doubt, no comparison, no weird pull to perform.

What was different? About 150 people whose faces shine with the love of Christ. And me, finally living fully in my true identities, who God made me to be, the names He calls me.

It has been a while since I invested in a full training for myself. When I clicked register I was in disbelief. The timing was terrible, just one week before facilitating my own training and in the final push to get Monarch Meadows ready. The financial investment felt really, really hard given everything it is already taking to build this place.

And yet. God is always right. And His timing perfect.

That nudge. That voice. That sense that has been there the whole time, the one I have called other things, overanalyzed, and thought too hard about. It has been God the whole time. He wants to be in every second of our day. He is speaking all the time. And He made us to hear His voice. He is there. And He is so, so good, loving us so very much.

As part of this program, I’ve completed about three months of education along with group & individual coaching sessions, leading into these three days of in-person training. Now I head into eight weeks of learning labs & over 30 hours of inner healing work, both receiving & leading. It is the biggest investment of time & resources I have made in my 25-year career outside of my degrees. It is also the most important.

The healing I have received & honored to be part of these last few days is unlike anything I have ever experienced. The overwhelming love of God I have mostly only read about and sung about for eleven years of knowing Christ is now is so palpable, right beside me, always there, always speaking, exactly as He has always meant it to be.

Grateful. Joyful. In love.